most difficult phase of life is not when no one understand you but when you dont understand yourself;)


Jan 27, 2012

ianya contengan jalanan

Assalamualaikum.

Peminat penulis novel Hlovate mesti dah baca contengan jalanan.Agak lambat aku memiliki novel ni memandangkan masih banyak buku-buku lain yang menarik hati aku.Tiap kali singgah MPH atau popular mesti pegang buku ni tapi masih tak terlintas untuk memilikinya.Tapi Alhamdulillah dapat jugak beli novel ni.

Sumpah.Novel ni ada 1001 pengisian yang MasyaAllah sangat baik.Penyusunan bahasa yang sesuai dengan jiwa remaja.Bahasa yang santai di samping pengisian ilmu yang tak terkira banyaknya.Hlovate berkarya sambil mentarbiyah pembaca dia:) sungguh aku kagum!

Baru habis baca kisah satu-Fend.Menceritakan perjalanan hidup Fend dalam mencari erti kehidupan yang sebenar.Pengisian hidup seorang mukmin.Fend seperti bayangan diri sendiri.Diri sendiri yang leka dan terbuai dengan dunia.Aku mengaku sejak keluar dari asrama hidup ni tak lagi teratur.Tapi itu lah risiko nya.Sembahyang kebanyakannya di hujung waktu.Kalau boleh zohor nak sekali dengan asar.Quran entah kemana.

Mula-mula baca kisah Fend ni air mata tak henti mengalir.Tak tahu kenapa.Teresak-esak malam tu.Orang lain tidur aku pulak teresak-esak dekat bilik belakang.Habis je baca novel tu terus bangun basuh muka.ambik wudhu' solat sunat,fardhu isya' dan doa yang berpanjangan. Kalau Fend dapat cahaya dari Lia yang berikan dia The 11th Hour,aku boleh kata yang aku nampak ada cahaya yang aku dapat dari contengan jalanan ni.Harapnya cahaya tu bersinar ke akhirnya:)

Man who decided to change at twelve died at eleven.

Jan 17, 2012

laman sosial penuh emosi

Assalamualaikum.

Ehem!I just want to announce that i have delete my facebook.Deleted! Not Deactivate it.Reason?I dont know.I felt like my facebook is full of strangers.It was my mistake approving those strangers and when i decided to delete them,there was too many of them.

And i am annoyed with some of my 'friends'in my page.Their status somehow disturbed me.jealous?Naa..So i decided to delete it.I will create a new account later when this 'feeling' eliminate from the body - xoxo afqh

Jan 16, 2012

2012 the beginning of life

Assalamualaikum.

2012 is bored.For now!Seriously my life is so pathetic by doing every same things for the past two weeks?I woke up in the morning get scold by mom if i get ting up late or missed my subuh.Then i need to washed the dishes,need to do the laundry,need to iron the clothes for my adek'sand my mom and my dad..

Yeah,and currently i has a new hobby,cooking?Believe it or not..As the bibik of the house i need to cook too.Dont know why,but my mom rarely cook now!Seriously so my adek need to eat anything i cook.haha.I really think that i can enter master chef because i really think i have that talent.haha

I am taking a driving lessons so that i can have a license.Cannot wait meh..But sumpah! I really hate that 'teacher'.never puntual.fierce like a lion.And on my first trial driving a car i had bumped on another car.Shame on me.

Just know that my primary school member are going to GMI.Iam deadly jealous. German-Malaysia Institute.Only a genius get a chanced to study there.i guess.And most of my friend already have their own program,i am the only one yang tepinga-pinga dekat rumah.

But i need to believe that every cloud had a silver lining right? It just not my rezeki yet. Ya Allah give me the opportunities to hold the success so that i can be a good daughter for my mom and dad.To be a great khalifah in your world.Till then may Allah bless us.

Jan 2, 2012

AzamTahun Baru

Assalamualaikum.

Selamat Tahun Baru.Mungkin terlambat tapi lebih baik dari tiada kan?Tahun baru azam baru?Azam?Azam-azam dari sepuluh tahun lepas pun tak tertunai lagi.Mampu ke untuk aku berazam lagi tahun ni?Tapi apa yang pasti azam ku setiap tahun untuk menjadi manusia yang lebih baik dari sebelumnya.

  • Mahu menjadi hamba yang taat pada penciptanya
  • Mahu menjadi anak yang baik terhadap ibu dan bapa
  • Mahu menjadi adik dan kakak yang lebih baik dari sebelumnya.
  • Mahu menjadi manusia yang berguna

Azam ku setiap tahun yang masih belum mampu aku penuhi.Entah sampai bila.

Tapi tahun ni aku berharap untuk kurus!Doakan aku.

Oct 7, 2011

trial

gambar annoying!

Assalamualaikum.

Ehem.Okay i had finished my trial and i had received the result.Overall..maintain.Except mathematics la.I got so many soalan bocor or spot question,but i dont know why i cant score.Tak berkat?Possible!

KDK 2/14.
3A2A-2c+1C1D1E.

ok.aku malu.bye.

Sep 27, 2011

얼마나 바보 같은 당신



Assalamualaikum.

I know that you may not understand the meaning of the title.But just google and translate it:)i was wondering.how come a small little heart can contain thousand kind of feeling.That can be described or not.Why?

Currently i was mad at a several people.Yeah!They are like a boy that does not have parents. That does not taught them how to be polite or how to care of others feelings. Gauche. Yeah.The one and only things that you are expert in is fooling others.Make yourself confident by fooling others.Pathetic.

You talk about haram but cant you see that touching your very own best girl friend is HARAM. Maybe i dont have the right to tak about it when i am not that perfect.But that is basic things ok. Islam said that you cannot touch your bukan muhrim right?Holding hands,touching others and even talk about sex among you that are different gender?how?

And again you talk like an idiot.Talking something useless.Talking about the weekness of others.
PATHETIC!

p/s:the title is in korean.

Sep 24, 2011

abang seven eleven

Assalamualaikum:)


Hey there.It has been a while since my last update huh?Sorry but i am pretty busy about everything.I dont have enough time to manage my live properly.Cant wait until i finished SPM.Currently i just finished my trial.So far i dont think that my result gonna be gempak.I got C for my mathematics.And i was wondering.Am i that stupid.

Actually i went for my teachers open house and straight to kasturi for physics class.As i told you that i have a really tight schedule.Haha.(padahal pagi tu tak pergi sekolah).Yeah but something happen.Something like urrrrm.It really silly man.Oh my.It my first time so it kinda give a big impact on me.Yeah.i am not that girl that have fully tutup aurat.I mean,i wear a hijab.I wear a long sleeve shirt(not proper one)but ithink that just not enough huh?Ofcourse.

I'm thinking several times about it.I tried to forget everything but it was hard.I went to seven eleven which is nest to kasturi to buy a kinderbueno.When i want to paid the choc the abang cashier approach and said "cantik tudung"and i was like 'whats wrong with this mamat kelantan'
then he said something like"tudung dah lawa.tapi kalau pakai elok-elok lagi cantik""buat apa pakai tudung kalau tak menutup sepenuhnya kan?Baik tak payah pakai tudung"And i was like OH MY GOD.whats your problem dude?But i didnt say anything la.Yeah i know that i was pretty mess taht time.Yeah i didnt covered my chest properly because the shawl is too pendek. It was my mistake.I admit it.

But does he need to advice me that harsh.I mean he advice me infront of my friend.Infront the other cashier and infront the oother customer.And his voice..Oh my.sangat kuat lol!All those people dah terdiam.see?what the heck?come on.nak tegur orang pon ada caranya.Saya tahu la awak nak berdakwah tapi berhikmah la sikit kan?Yeah.no one has tegur me like that beside my abang and my best friend:)so it kinda opened my eyes la.but i have a pride.seriously. I dont think advice is a suitable word right?

to abang seven eleven.thank you.may allah bless.Tapi sumpah saya tak masuk dah seven eleven tuh!